Unfortunate events just wouldn’t go away.

How difficult is it to pretend that have moved on when in reality the pain still lingers? How can you fake a smile when the heart is in deep sorrow? Unanswerable questions, but when it hits you, there is no way of escaping, and to survive is to master the trick well. Unfortunately I couldn’t just do it on her presence, so I avoided her as much as I could. Sometimes though, since or apartments are just adjacent, I could clearly hear her voice from beyond the GI wall separating our kitchens. Her laughter is such a painful blow to my pride. It’s definitely true that she didn’t really love me, not once. But how could this joke happen, where is fairness? Why Am I the only one that feels the pain?

It was almost the end of the second semester of school, but there still a big school event coming, the College SportsFest. One day on Room 201 of ESET, a few ladies went into the room to practice for the dance contest. One of them caught my eye, she looks beautiful to me, and with the help of a friend, I happened to know her name. Let’s say we call her “SEVEN”. By co-incident, ININ’s roommate and my close friend “BEBE” knows her, they were actually classmates for 1 semester. One morning while I was doing the laundry, I happened to eavesdrop on the conversation on the other side of the GI wall. “It’s them again”. But I noticed that the 2 voices are definitely ININ and BEBE’s. Well, I thought to myself, this might be a good opportunity to have a heart check up. “Hey ladies, I bet you’ll are doing laundry”. “Hello ROY, I haven’t seen you in quite a few weeks already, how are you doing?” It’s a no brainer, that voice is ININ’s. Does she even have a heart at all, I thought to myself .She definitely have no right to ask how I am after all she was the whole reason why I am so depressed. “I’m definitely fine, and I’m very much okay” “Hey BE, I heard you and SEVEN have been classmates before, I want to talk to you about her if we can have time, can we?” “Sure we can ROY, anytime you want” “Oh ROY, so you have a new crush? I will definitely feel jealous about that, how come you didn’t even tell me about it darling?” She’s definitely trying to kill me now, I thought, but the last word still sounds so sweet to my ears. Is she teasing me? What is she trying to accomplish? “I have to move on; I couldn’t just lay down heart broken am I?”
But nobody replied, I guess they are already done with the laundry.

The next morning on my way to school, I met BEBE. So we talked: “I know you did that on purpose ROY” “What?” “I felt ININ really felt bad about the conversation we have yesterday while we were doing laundry when you asked about SEVEN” “I don’t think so BE, how could she? She already dumped me remember?” “I know that but I think she still have that desire to be your friend, she often tells me how much she admires you. That you’re such a smart and thoughtful guy and that she tried her best to love you in return” “But we know she didn’t, and that all she did was to give me false hope and left me heart broken, how do you think she would feel if she were in my shoes” “Well, I thought we are to talk about SEVEN aren’t we?” So we talked about SEVEN until we arrived in the school.