Unfortunate events season2 finale

So there we are, reconciled again. So we have been officially “ON” for 2 weeks, cooled off and reconciled for 3 days, broke up and reconciled again… for a day. Yes, only for a day. The following night, ININ put a final stop to our relationship, this time she was not kind, she didn’t even give me a chance to react. As soon as the “period” message left her mouth, she was gone. But I already expected that sooner or later we will really part ways. This time there will be no use of convincing myself, I know I have to go on, and I know that the next thing I should do is to move on with my life. All memories of my past flashed back, my x-girlfriend Mary Jane. I broke up her and I didn’t even care what she felt. Mary Jane cried rivers of tears for me, for a week she didn’t went out, she stayed in her room. At that time it sounded corny to me, but now I am in the same position. I suddenly felt sorry for Mary Jane. Suddenly my pain lightened, I imagined Mary Jane’s tears, her broken heart. Then as if a miracle happened, I remembered a familiar song from REM, “everybody hurts”. I thought of revenge for ININ, I want to see her cry the same tears for me. But I suddenly realized that it’s impossible. Now the situation is much clearer, it’s my turn to cry, maybe ININ already cried rivers of tears before, maybe worst than what I’m going through. Every time I felt the pain, the loss, I then thought to myself, everybody will cry, maybe not now, but in the future they will. ININ will cry, she will feel what I feel, she will broke down, the way I broke down, I took advantage of my new found pride to handle the situation, and I didn’t even realize that it has already been more than one month since we broke up. Days past by and I felt my heart slowly healing. I concentrated on my studies, I kept myself busy. One day my room mate LAKAY told me that ININ already left the apartment. I was shocked, “why?” “Her land lady accused her of being a mistress of her husband, she kicked her and throw her clothes” “So where did they transfer?” I asked LAKAY, “I don’t know”. At last there was peace in my heart. Now I can freely walk around, without seeing her, I know my heart will heal fast. I was so thankful not because of her misfortune, for I know it’s not true, but because she finally left me. “Today is the first day of the rest of my life, thank you ININ”

Unfortunate events season2 part4

I couldn’t think straight at that moment, she was I think 100 meters away from me, walking with her friends. It was the 3rd of January, I arrived early in the morning in the apartment, and the whole day I couldn’t help myself but asked around if “IN-IN” has already arrived from Tubod. One of her roommates told me she would be arriving later that afternoon. So I just stayed outside that whole afternoon playing the guitar. There was so much excitement in my heart. We will be seeing each other again after almost 3 weeks. It was almost dark when they arrived. I have been waiting for like 4 hours already, but I lost all courage to face her, instead I run upstairs to my room and watched them passed by. I turned off all the lights for them not to suspect somebody in the room. I can see them clearly outside when they passed, and I noticed she took the time to look up my window. I felt a little relieved when they disappeared from the sight of my room. I entertained the thought that she might be looking for me and felt a little happy. But I already made up my mind, as much as possible I don’t want her to see me. I want to feel that I’m wanted and that she would take the time to ask and look for me. I lay down on my bed, sighing, thinking and waiting. Nobody knocked at the door, nobody is shouting my name on the window, 30 minutes, and hour, another 30 minutes, 2 hours. I felt defeated, I finally accepted the fact that my thought is just too good to be true. So I went down and started to show myself to her roommates, I know she’s just around, I can hear her laughs opposite our apartment. It’s just a thin wood wall that separates the kitchenette from our apartment. Finally her roommate BEBE noticed my presence, “Hey Roy, ININ is already here, she was looking for you” “Yeah?” “Yeah, why were you not here during the Christmas party, you missed a lot, we have such fun, and ININ was looking for you”
“There was a little emergency at home, so I was not able to inform you” “Hey, Roy, I missed you sooo much, what happened to you, you didn’t even inform me that you went home, all the while we think you were just here” Everyone teased us and I blushed instantly. I felt 0 degrees Kelvin and my legs starts shaking. I can’t believe what I’m hearing; she then asked if we can talk, so I said “of course”. The two of us sat on the dark corner of our apartment, far from her roommates so no one can hear us. “I was really looking for you during the Christmas party” “I’m sorry I didn’t have enough time to inform you, to be honest, I was devastated when you broke up with me. I still felt the pain” “I’m really sorry if I hurt your feelings, I have been honest with you lately, I’m also missing you, but I can’t and will not promise you that this is love, I just missed your presence that’s all” “I don’t want to think that I’m special to you but to demand for my presence is just too much, If you care for me, you have to let me go, do not talk to me, for every time you let me feel I’m wanted, it pains my heart. I thought I already reach the bottom, but I’m still and continuously falling in love with you” “Why does it have to be like this? Why can’t we just be friends? Teach your heart to forget me, but don’t go away from me, do not avoid my presence” “Your impossible, have you not been in love? Juven and Jonathan hurt you, and your doing the same thing they’ve done to you to me” “Please Roy listen, if you really care for me, you have to understand me, you are the only person that I can trust and I can lean on, everyone else turned their backs on me” “This conversation is going nowhere, If you want me to stay, then let’s reconcile, give me another chance”. I didn’t even realize that I uttered those words, suddenly there was silence, and ININ didn’t say single word. She then kissed me and left, the warmth of her lips electrified my whole body, it left me dumbfounded, I didn’t even had a chance to kiss her back. The moment I went back to reality, she was already gone. I stayed a little longer hoping she would come back, and luckily she did. “I considered your suggestion, I’m giving you a last chance…”

Unfortunate events season2 part3

I was a little elated by Mervin’s comment on my blog, so I decided to continue the “unfortunate events” story.

I quit my commitment with our class Christmas caroling group, and decided that moment to go home instead. My classmates asked me why, I thought to myself; if only these guys knew the hell I’ve been through. I borrowed two hundred bucks from my friend, packed a few clothes, and went straight to the bus terminal. That night as I was riding the ferry, I felt that I was lifeless; my body numb of feelings, and my pride was nowhere to be found. Everyone else in the ferry is asleep, yet I’m fully awake, the tiresome 4 hrs bus ride brought only pain to my flesh, but it didn’t stop the neurons of my brains to flashback memories of IN-IN. I felt betrayed by my own senses, I felt angry for myself, and I want to crush the portion of my heart that loves her. I wanna burn to ashes the brain cells that contain her memories. I went down to the rear of the ferry where I can see the water, I reached for my pocket, and grabbed her picture, and like a rebellious child, torn the picture to pieces hoping that the act will help my senses recover. I went back to my bed and luckily I was able to sleep. When I woke up, there were only few passengers left in the ferry, others already left for their destination. I fixed myself, my things and took a tricycle ride home. “Kuya Roy, how are you? How’s Iligan?” I was greeted warmly by my cousins, I smiled back to them and went straight to my house in the compound. My father already left for work, and my mother cooked a delicious meal for my breakfast. We chatted that morning; I shared with her the pain I went through. My mother has always been my best friend. She would always know my problem before I share it to her. That day, I started to feel the stress of the trip. I rested and slept for the most part of the day. Just as I thought that I would be okay, everything comes back again, that night when everybody else were already asleep, I went outside, in the shadow of the little tree, I cried my heart out. There was no sob, no voice, only tears, freely flowing down from my eyes. I did not even try to hold them back, I just let them fall. Here in this little shadow, no one will notice that I’m crying, they will not notice that I was broken-hearted. I suddenly remembered her words before we broke up; “By the way, don’t miss our Christmas party, I prepared something for you, I know you will like it”. The next evening, I approached my father and mother, “mom, I need to go back to Iligan to attend our Christmas party”, “What? You should not have come home in the first place” my dad replied angrily. My mom was a little silent; I guess she understood my plea. “Stay here instead, we don’t have money for your fare, why not just spend Christmas and New Year here with us” my mom calmly suggested. My dad is always firm with his decision, and when he says it, it is final. I did not hesitate to ask them again, I know I would only be reprimanded. The 2 week long Christmas break was like eternity for me. Day and night I go to the same routine, sleeping the whole day and crying at night. If I have gathered all the tears, it would have filled a glass. Then a little excitement filled my rebel heart during the New Year. I would admit that although my suffering is hell deep, I am still excited to see her again. And this is what I don’t understand. I guess love is really blind sometimes, we choose to close our eyes to reality, shut our senses to the truth, and choose to believe a lie. That “LIE” that I choose to believe was not spoken by “IN-IN” but made by myself. Like Luke Skywalker believing that there is still good he can find in his father’s heart. My heart is hoping that there is still a little place for my love in her heart.